This Is My Story...
I can remember the days very clearly like it was yesterday... running to my grandmothers back bedroom to sit at her 1940’s make-up vanity and rummaging through all of her cosmetics and perfumes. I can almost smell the vintage furniture and hear the sounds of laughter coming from the kitchen today. There was a particular pink lipstick that provided just the right amount of color… a glossy lip tint in silver metallic packaging. It was my favorite and the one I put on every time I visited her. Her luxurious fur coats and jewelry were an added bonus to playing dress up. What is it about playing in our mothers or grandmothers make up and clothes as little girls? We begin to dream at such a young age and visualize how our lives as a grown woman will one day be.
And that one day later in life during my early 20’s, did not start out like I imagined as a little girl. I call it my humble beginnings. I was a single mother on welfare, living paycheck to paycheck. I was working for an insurance company at the time and took on a second job at a fragrance and beauty counter to help make ends meet.
The hardest part was sacrificing time with my son. It broke my heart to come home late at night to see him long enough to hold him a minute before going to sleep…and sometimes when already asleep, all I could do was watch him sleeping peacefully in his crib while I stood there wondering how can I make our life better. The inward struggle gripped at my heart daily and I knew I needed to make some serious changes quickly. So, in 1995 I packed up our bags and moved from Florida, back to my hometown in Texas for a new lease on life. Before leaving, I had one request for God…would you send me a man that would love me and my son and treat me like the lady I knew I deserved to be treated like?
Months later after arriving and settling in, my knight in shining armor arrived. Then, five years thereafter we were married. You’ve heard those stories about your world spinning when you kiss someone? Yes, that happened to me with my husband. My world literally spun around on our first kiss. But, a few years into the marriage I soon started to realize we had a lot of healing to overcome or we were heading for divorce, and that was not an option for me.
I’ve heard it so many times….money was the number one cause for divorce and I was beginning to see that as a reality in my marriage. Neither of us were frivolous spenders. Our living expenses simply outweighed our income…and we were not living large. I wanted to help somehow. So, after the birth of my second son 15 years ago, I decided to start an online cosmetic business so I could be home for my child and help contribute financially to our family.
As much as I put my heart and soul into my business (mind you, we didn’t have all of the technology 15 years ago like we do today), it failed miserably. I had taken out a $10,000.00 loan for my business and we put our truck down as a lien. When we could no longer pay the loan, one day a man comes knocking on my door to serve me papers. He arrived to confiscate our truck. Here I was with my baby sitting on the stairs of my porch, hopeless and in tears watching our vehicle be towed away. I felt like a huge failure to myself and my family. Thank goodness my husband had a company truck at the time.
The Divine Call...
The next several years were tough. We had a lot of un-forgiveness and resentment in our marriage. It was either I go back to work or we get a divorce. I knew in my heart of hearts I was to be home for my children, but I pursued a job anyways to keep my marriage together. I was an Esthetician at the time, so I ventured into the spa industry.
My first application led to an interview and I was hired on the spot! My husband was relieved, but I was miserable and unfulfilled inside. I was trying to keep it all together…. working, being a mom, a wife, taking care of my home, running errands, doctor and dentist appointments for all of us….the list goes on.
Everything seemed out of balance in my life and I hit a breaking point. I was at the end of my rope. Everything was falling apart around me quickly. I cried out to God for help. I decided I couldn’t do ANY of this anymore in my self-righteous efforts.
It was at that time in my life I made a decision to start putting God first in all that I do. When I made that change in my heart, in an instant my world was turned around for the better. It was a radical encounter I will never forget….one of overwhelming love. It was all uphill from that point on. I began to witness miracle after miracle in my marriage, family and finances.
But, before I begin to tell you of all the miracles, let me share this epiphany moment…
One day in 2012, I suddenly realized all of the places I had ever worked in my life were simply a training ground that brought me to where I am today as a wealth coach and spiritual entrepreneur. As I stopped and thought about that and began connecting the dots, I began to see why I was at each job and how I took those skills and applied it to what I’m doing today. It was suddenly crystal clear I had been building my dream from the onset! Life is certainly a beautiful dance and has a way of continuously evolving.
As all of these memories flooded my mind like a fine fragrance wafting through the air, I remember going back as far as my elementary years and recalling a particular day when I skipped school when I was just 10 years old! I can't believe the tenacity I had at such a young age! I had a deep yearning to stay home and play office one day. The fire burning within me at the time left quite an imprint on my life. I was so passionate about what I was doing that I pretended I was CEO of my own company.
I even took my mobile office with me (which I believe included a notepad, pen, calculator and a vintage desktop phone) to school the next day and continued playing in between school assignments. Who would have known in the late 70's, having a mobile business allowing you the freedom to work from anywhere would be available today?! I call that divine guidance!
I look back on that now and smile…it's a reminder for me to never stop learning, keep dreaming bigger, continuously evolve and not give up. It was obvious later in life why I was so driven as a young girl…it was my divine calling.